Pain

De José Antonio Calañas Continente
In the air. October 2016


It hurts.
Indescribably.
Around my heart
a deep groove sent me
into a tailspin.
A tailspin
not so easily stopped.
It hurts.
To get my heart
stomped on,
to get my feelings
ignored,
to be just thrown away
like yesterday’s news.
Discarded in life,
worth living though.
Again searching
for that anchor
able to steady me,
able to ground me,
able to make me feel
not only human, but
a worthy human again.
Resurfacing
from a swamp of pain,
thorny bushes around,
with no ground underneath,
without a way to keep afloat.
Above the pain
I am bound to rise,
above the pain
I have to fly,
soar in the air
I so dearly crave
to feel complete again,
complete to be
blown into pieces.
But, be assured,
once again I will find
every single piece,
once again I will be there
to piece myself again
into the wholeness I deserve.
So now stand up,
breathe deep,
dry your eyes,
smile
and go on.

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